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the more i concentrate on the positive qualities in others, the more i will notice them in myself. as i sit here, much later than i usually do, i am impressed by the amount of effort i had to put in, just to get here. one of my clients forgot about their limits and as a result, my website account was suspended. to get to where i could actually write this,was quite the effort and one that may have sent me stomping off in rage and justifying that rage with a quick judgment about how smart someone really was. so now that i can write and i have taken precautions to prevent that from happening over the weekend again, i am content and i am willing to stop judging, at least for right now.
i just read a book that left me with an idea that is quite appropriate to this reading, although it is something i know, namely, that when i am judging someone else, i am setting myself up to be superior to them. the need to feel superior, while understandable in the light of my progress to date, is still disturbing to me. i know, this is is a process not an event, and i know that it is a human trait as well as a manifestation of my emotional state. all of that is nice, and it does wonders for getting me from being so hard on myself, but i wonder when i will let go of the need to play these power games in my relationships and just submit to the fact that i am no better or no worse than anyone else walking the face of this planet. the HOPE is that i want to change, that i am willing to allow the process to work and that if i keep doing what i have doing, working a program of active recovery, this so-called NEED to feel superior will subside into the ether.
anyhow, i have to get cracking on what my plan of the day was, and see what i can get done today. life is good and i can let go of my bad behaviors and be more than i was yesterday. so with that thought i will sign-off to next time.

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