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and my choices, what an interesting thought to start my day. i certainly can see that i am defined by what i choose to or not to do. my choice to use this latest offering in daily meditations from the fellowship that has given me this new manner of living is certainly one example of that. i can say that my experience has been in general, fairly positive although there have been more than a few “misses.” be that as it may, as i enter the new month, i will once again have the opportunity to make a choice and accept what that choice may bring. the simple fact is, that most of the time, i can see the effects that my choices may have on my life and consider them carefully before i act. in those instances where i am surprised by how i am affected by my choices, i can whine or moan about the outcome, or accept that the unexpected is part of living a full and active life.
this morning, for instance, as winter continues to drag on and on locally, i can CHOOSE to go run outside in the snow on the snowy slick streets or drive to the confined and controlled environment of the Rec Center. warm, dry and smells like a gym, or wet, slick and fresh air ⇝ quite a spread of variables there. me, i am opting for the the inside workout this morning, as i have both the resources to do so and the desire to be more comfortable while i take care of my physical self.
time and again, i keep coming back to what i see as examples of what i do not want to be. i now know for certain that as i age, i do not wish to become dependent on others to do what i can do for myself, even if it is a difficult task that i think may be beyond my capabilities. once again i got a call in the evening to leave what i was doing and “rescue” someone close to me. what she needed done, was a task she could have accomplished herself, but in her world, if it may be hard and she may fail at it, then she does not even attempt to do it. in my mind, life is too short to allow myself to spin down into irrelevance and just for today, i CHOOSE to exercise my autonomy, by doing what i can for myself. doing for myself, includes getting up from my nice comfortable chair and getting some miles under my belt. it also means that i can choose what direction i want to take. i can be kind even when i do not feel kind and in some instances that is harder, much harder than it sounds. that notion is certainly a fine mantra on which to base my choices in the day that is ahead of me, just for today.

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