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i have discovered that life goes a lot easier when i replace my negative thinking with positive principles. so thinking my way into better behaviors> i always thought it was behaving my way into better thinking. either way, recovery has been a strange trip for this addict. it is moire than quite true, that i did have blaming everyone and everything else for all my pratfalls, downfalls and just plain bumps in the road. it is also quite true, that i had taken cynicism to a brand new level, when i walked into the rooms. i am still cynical, as that has yet to be removed., i do not, however face life with he the same defiant and cynical attitude that i once had. so the 6th step DOES work, at least in my limited experience. oh yeah,, there i go again, minimizing the effect of the program on my life. i can easily say limited experience, because in general, it is part of the human condition. there is no way i will ever have VAST experience, as that is one of those relative terms, that ranks up there with significant clean time for me. although the argument can and be made for the value of such relative terms . when i am writing, i choose to allow those terms very little space in these words. all of that however is irrelevant. what i am hearing now 9 or so hours after i read this reading, is that because i have been in recovery for some time, and because i have done the work suggested, i can choose to allow the negative thoughts to take control again, or i can choose to live by the spiritual principles that i have been taught, hence making negativity take a back seat to the here and now. what i am not saying is that i NEED to put a positive spin on everything that happens in my life. bad stuff happens, that too is part of this human's condition.no when bad stuff happens what i need to do, is see that for what it is, a bad event and part of a process that will take me back to where i came from.
anyhow, at this time there is nothing more i need or want to say except this;: i am grateful for the attitude that i have been given in recovery, and the tools i NEED to take my negative attitude away when i recognize it creeping back into focus.

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