๐ some purpose ๐
Posted: Sat, Jul 10, 2021 11:52:21 AM
to my words of wisdom is a test i often fail. there once was a time, when i believed that EVERYTHING i had to offer NEEDED to be said. those days are behind me, most of the time, but i still fall into that trap every now and again.
ROUND TWO:
well my test to post from my new tablet worked, what did not was my ability to write to the text file i use, just in case something goes wrong with my post. good thing i have a few weeks to figure it out, and it may not be the solution i am used to. what i am dealing with this morning is the fact that a willfully unvaccinated person is in my home, and apparently does not see what a self-centered, selfish bitch they are being. it is all LA-DE-DAH, no worries, “i take care of myself!” yeah, what about the rest of us🙻 🙻 🙻 my DESIRE is to kick this person to the curb, until they see the errors of their ways and provide more than a few choice “words of wisdom.” what they decide to do in their own home is fine, but to be totally oblivious to the needs of others, that drives home the point i ma making about me walking blindly through the world, not caring who i injured with my behaviors and words.
in my life today, i can accept that others make choices on how to live their lives. my Mom has decided she is okay to sit in her chair until she dies. whether or not i am okay with that, is beside the point. i may not be the most spiritual nor the most wise person on any block, BUT i do have a framework that allows me the FREEDOM to see where i stumble and how to avoid those pratfalls in the future. my life these days, is pretty sweet. i GET to have a second round of interviews with a possible new employer. i GET to go to Greece and sail the Aegean Sea. i have a home, a job, friends, loved ones and a POWER that fuels my recovery. i may focus on what is not perfect in my life, but i can also see what ids worthwhile and worthy of acknowledgement. i have the DESIRE not to die, tied to my computer, slipping away, bit by bit. i have the DESIRE to lose the spare tire i have been carrying around for the past thirty years. i have the desire to find a more spiritual manner of living and i can see my path forward in all of that.
on that positive note, the time has come, to reach out and get some food, and tie myself to the computer to completed a project of two, so i am better prepared to interview next week, and maybe, find a new place of employment, after i return from Greece.
ROUND TWO:
well my test to post from my new tablet worked, what did not was my ability to write to the text file i use, just in case something goes wrong with my post. good thing i have a few weeks to figure it out, and it may not be the solution i am used to. what i am dealing with this morning is the fact that a willfully unvaccinated person is in my home, and apparently does not see what a self-centered, selfish bitch they are being. it is all LA-DE-DAH, no worries, “i take care of myself!” yeah, what about the rest of us🙻 🙻 🙻 my DESIRE is to kick this person to the curb, until they see the errors of their ways and provide more than a few choice “words of wisdom.” what they decide to do in their own home is fine, but to be totally oblivious to the needs of others, that drives home the point i ma making about me walking blindly through the world, not caring who i injured with my behaviors and words.
in my life today, i can accept that others make choices on how to live their lives. my Mom has decided she is okay to sit in her chair until she dies. whether or not i am okay with that, is beside the point. i may not be the most spiritual nor the most wise person on any block, BUT i do have a framework that allows me the FREEDOM to see where i stumble and how to avoid those pratfalls in the future. my life these days, is pretty sweet. i GET to have a second round of interviews with a possible new employer. i GET to go to Greece and sail the Aegean Sea. i have a home, a job, friends, loved ones and a POWER that fuels my recovery. i may focus on what is not perfect in my life, but i can also see what ids worthwhile and worthy of acknowledgement. i have the DESIRE not to die, tied to my computer, slipping away, bit by bit. i have the DESIRE to lose the spare tire i have been carrying around for the past thirty years. i have the desire to find a more spiritual manner of living and i can see my path forward in all of that.
on that positive note, the time has come, to reach out and get some food, and tie myself to the computer to completed a project of two, so i am better prepared to interview next week, and maybe, find a new place of employment, after i return from Greece.
∞ DT ∞