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having recently finished my incarnation of being a student, i feel that today's topic is a bit over the top for the following reason. the first is that i do not believed my recovery is tested when i face life situations that i find difficult. although this may just be spinning the words, i do look at the various challenges that i face as opportunities for growth, there is no failure nor am i graded on the final outcome. if i stay clean through these times i have succeeded in applying the tools and the spiritual principles that i have been given to me through my association with the addicts with whom i share my recovery with. i get resentful when i start to evaluate and judge "how well i did" and if i need to look at life as a series of examinations i soon conclude that no matter how hard i try i will never get it perfect so what is the point. instead if i have to look at each new growth opportunity as a test, which i do not, i can say the examination is all or none, pass or fail and the criterion for evaluation was 'Did i stay clean?'
i possess the 10th Step inventory to make corrections to my behavior, so as i pass through each opportunity of growth, i can evaluate my day to day actions, reactions and behaviors making the corrections needed in the HERE and NOW!
now that i have ranted about an exception i took to the reading, i do relate about the rest of the metaphor of the school of recovery and find it a useful reminder that no matter how much 'better' i may get as a result of this program, i can always learn how to do it better and my teachers are all of the addicts how happen to pass through my life ONE DAY AT A TIME!
∞ DT ∞