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i was certainly one of those, way back when, who believed that if i stayed clean for long enough, went to enough meetings, worked enough steps to the best of my ability and served my fellowship enough, i would end up floating in a cloud of serenity twenty-four/seven. i guess i have yet to achieve “enough” as i still have to “practice” serenity, rather than just being in that state. i have reached a point in my recovery, however, where taking a minute to pause, breathe and let my heart catch up with my head, allows me to enter a more serene state. it is more than ironic that when i was attempting to achieve emotional balance when i was using, by stripping out the highs and the lows. today, i experience those highs and lows, but do my best to respond to them, rather than react.
this morning, as i prepared to enter this day, by reading the news of the world, i reminded myself the the PAB felon that was elected president was “fixing” stuff that did not need fixing, in order to distract from the stuff that requires fixing, but is beyond his power to do so. eggs have goner up $2.00 per dozen since he was elected and of course that is due to the bird flu, which is way beyond his power to correct. over-promise and under-deliver, has always been part of US politics, Number 47 has just taken it to a new level and his indoctrinated followers just accept that as it is, after all …
okay, i got off track there. where i need to be, is allowing myself the freedom to feel what i feel, speak my mind and let it all go. right here and right now, i will do my best to carry forward the spiritual principles of the recovery program to which i ascribe. in this world of hate and fear, promoted by main stream media, i will oatmeal to be more loving and assuage the fears of those around me. yes, climate change is happening and will only get worse, based on the direction the US government takes over the course of the next four years. i may be powerless over the macro part of that, but i can do what i can to reduce my carbon footprint. it is a great day to be clean and a better day to look to my actions and change what i can, just for today. that, ffor me is the path to serenity.

∞ DT ∞