∀ i will quiet my own thoughts and listen to what someone else is saying ∀
Posted: Fri, Dec 9, 2011 07:15:45 AM
as i journey towards Denver this morning, i still have a few things to get accomplished. i am on a way early bus, and one that does not stop again until we get to our destination, and all of a sudden in a flash, i have my metaphor for this little ditty.
this whole working in an office gig has been a bit of an adjustment for me, but adjustment or not, the nice part of this gig, is that i GET an hour each way when i am allowed to not be present. i do not have to pay attention to anything as i motor on down the highway, all of that is being taken care of for me. the metaphor that i came up with, is often in meetings and in conversation my mind is like this bus ride, making limited stops and not present for what is going on around me in the here and now. i am judging, or scheming, or even just tuning out, rather than listening to what is being said. i even find myself doing the same on some phone conversations, from time to time. yes, some days it is all about purple dragons and who cares if you hare sand in your shoes! does that make me an evil, uncaring slob? no, it just makes me human, although the part of me i call addiction, likes to use such events as evidence that i am no better than i was when i came to the rooms.
i could say i liked this reading, and while that may or may not be true for others, for me, i really have very little emotional reaction to the daily reading. what i do get is a mental reaction, that triggers a whole cascade of seemingly unrelated threads. today, however, i zoomed in on quick check of my skill set, namely do i have the ability to be an active listened, or am i just a passenger on the express bus to my next speech or sound bite? the answer of to that question, frames what i need to be present for today. yes i need to be present to being present to what is being said and respond appropriately. i can do that and when i get to my daily inventory tonight, it will be interesting to see how well i accomplished that task. it is after all, all about me today and HOW i manage to live a program of recovery,
so i am going to get a bit of work done, read the news and walk into work knowing i did what i needed to do, all the time traveling at 70 miles per hour down the highway. that my friends is a gift, just for today.
this whole working in an office gig has been a bit of an adjustment for me, but adjustment or not, the nice part of this gig, is that i GET an hour each way when i am allowed to not be present. i do not have to pay attention to anything as i motor on down the highway, all of that is being taken care of for me. the metaphor that i came up with, is often in meetings and in conversation my mind is like this bus ride, making limited stops and not present for what is going on around me in the here and now. i am judging, or scheming, or even just tuning out, rather than listening to what is being said. i even find myself doing the same on some phone conversations, from time to time. yes, some days it is all about purple dragons and who cares if you hare sand in your shoes! does that make me an evil, uncaring slob? no, it just makes me human, although the part of me i call addiction, likes to use such events as evidence that i am no better than i was when i came to the rooms.
i could say i liked this reading, and while that may or may not be true for others, for me, i really have very little emotional reaction to the daily reading. what i do get is a mental reaction, that triggers a whole cascade of seemingly unrelated threads. today, however, i zoomed in on quick check of my skill set, namely do i have the ability to be an active listened, or am i just a passenger on the express bus to my next speech or sound bite? the answer of to that question, frames what i need to be present for today. yes i need to be present to being present to what is being said and respond appropriately. i can do that and when i get to my daily inventory tonight, it will be interesting to see how well i accomplished that task. it is after all, all about me today and HOW i manage to live a program of recovery,
so i am going to get a bit of work done, read the news and walk into work knowing i did what i needed to do, all the time traveling at 70 miles per hour down the highway. that my friends is a gift, just for today.
∞ DT ∞