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Posted: Thu, Mar 1, 2012 07:57:10 AM
brought me all this way in recovery only to abandon me!
i know all about anxiety and panic attacks and the real truth is that the longer i stay clean, the more i adapt my life to fit a program of recovery and the deeper i walk in FAITH, the less and less they occur. as a matter of fact, i do not recall the last time i was in such a state and that is a good thing.
moving on. i need to whine a bit about a life on life's terms issue. the whole smoke alarm thing of needing batteries changed out and bitching at me to do it at 2:45 AM. why, why, why? because I DID NOT change them all when the first one went bad a few months ago. yes i take FULL responsibility for being lazy and yes i DO NOT CARE FOR the consequences of that particular decision. this morning started out frustrating and early because the new battery was dead as well. my decision this morning? change them all out and move on. i will be getting another FRESH battery for the recalcitrant alarm in the bedroom, the one that stated the whole affair this morning, just because that is what i will do. anyhow a small editorial comment, the hell woman who believes she is six feet tall is actually shorter than me, as i had a chance to scope that situation out. her lesson to me, is that i am not entitled to anything, EXCEPT the opportunity to recover. i can live with that and even though this promises to be a long day, who knows what will happen as i move forward. i have done a bunch of work, i got this entry done, all the smoke alarms have fresh batteries and i have the desire to stay clean today. in the words of Douglas Adams -- DON&339;T PANIC
as i we make the turn south, i have a feeling that i can handle whatever comes down the pike. my sponsees will call aor not, there will be work or not, i will make it to a meeting or not, but i can absolutely stay clean today and that gives me the HOPE i need to move forward.
i know all about anxiety and panic attacks and the real truth is that the longer i stay clean, the more i adapt my life to fit a program of recovery and the deeper i walk in FAITH, the less and less they occur. as a matter of fact, i do not recall the last time i was in such a state and that is a good thing.
moving on. i need to whine a bit about a life on life's terms issue. the whole smoke alarm thing of needing batteries changed out and bitching at me to do it at 2:45 AM. why, why, why? because I DID NOT change them all when the first one went bad a few months ago. yes i take FULL responsibility for being lazy and yes i DO NOT CARE FOR the consequences of that particular decision. this morning started out frustrating and early because the new battery was dead as well. my decision this morning? change them all out and move on. i will be getting another FRESH battery for the recalcitrant alarm in the bedroom, the one that stated the whole affair this morning, just because that is what i will do. anyhow a small editorial comment, the hell woman who believes she is six feet tall is actually shorter than me, as i had a chance to scope that situation out. her lesson to me, is that i am not entitled to anything, EXCEPT the opportunity to recover. i can live with that and even though this promises to be a long day, who knows what will happen as i move forward. i have done a bunch of work, i got this entry done, all the smoke alarms have fresh batteries and i have the desire to stay clean today. in the words of Douglas Adams -- DON&339;T PANIC
as i we make the turn south, i have a feeling that i can handle whatever comes down the pike. my sponsees will call aor not, there will be work or not, i will make it to a meeting or not, but i can absolutely stay clean today and that gives me the HOPE i need to move forward.
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