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my friends, my significant other, me peers or my sponsor on everything? well, i can rejoice, as it means we may be thinking for ourselves. there are cases and times when i disagree with everything, that these same people think, and that may not necessarily be an evil or bad thing, just as the times when i agree with all of what they think. that stuff just happens, and amazingly, as the reading suggests, i have and continue to, gravitate towards to those who have something i want, most of the time, it is that streak of independence and the ability to form their own conclusions, that attracts me the most. i enjoy having my notions challenged in a direct and thoughtful manner, and absolutely hate when someone parrots some party line or meme that happens to be running the rounds. i do not have “bumper sticker” recovery, and use the clichés that are part of the program, as little as possible, with the strong exception of “just for today.”
so how i got running down this track is a mystery to me, but since i am already here…
most of what i share these days, in a meeting and especially with my friends and close peers, is a bit out of the box. as i grow up and mature in my recovery, the slogans that i hated from the day i arrived in recovery, even though they did save my life, become less and less part of my recovery vocabulary. the ideas they express, however are engrained in me, and allow me to connect with others in the fellowship.
so yes, i can disagree with those with whom i am tight, and be okay with that. yes i can cringe when i hear a bromide loaded share session going on. and yes, even with all of that happening, i can be at peace knowing that regardless of what i say, i am becoming the sort of man, that i never dreamed was possible. as i hate traffic, it is time to cut and run, to see if i can make it to work faster than the past two days.

∞ DT ∞