โ over time, โ
Posted: Sat, Aug 15, 2015 10:20:04 AM
not overnight.
so i read the wrong JFT this morning, it happens, even the great and powerful Don, can be a just for tomorrow guy every now and again. what i heard then and what i herd now, as i step back into the here and now, are two entirely different notions,o you all get the joy of reading what i write without my normal period of listening, off the cuff as it is.
in this official crazy season, as i happen to call the daze before my annual clean date, i am struck daily by fits of comparing who i was and who i am going to be with who i am today. the irony here is: that i do NOT know who i will be, even the ELEVENTH STEP says, that our own true will for ourselves is but a glimpse…
in that same vein, reading the just for tomorrow, fits that theme to a tee. yes i wish i could be more social, and flow through social situations with a grace that i still do not possess. HOWEVER, looking back at where i came from, i have mad enormous strides in that area of my life, only because i have worked steps and stuck around, for more than a few revolutions around the sun. i will not say something ridiculous such as i have given it “110%” as there really is nothing more than 100% and those who spout that off and just showing their sheeple like ignorance, as it is no different than ”déjà vu, all over again.” oxymoronic and not even ironic.
anyhow, i have digress, so looking at my place on my recovery journey, whether or not i have given it my best effort, day in and day out, is often where i go in my crazy season. today, well today, i am way out of town for a family function and it appears in my dilly-dallying to get here yesterday, i missed out on some juicy bits of family drama.of well, there is a part of me that wants to know and a larger part of me that woke up this morning not caring about what happened yesterday afternoon, between my elders. what i do know is that it is time to head on over to the breakfast nook, see what they are up to today and move along, even if i am not as well as i think i want to be. it is a great day to be clean.
so i read the wrong JFT this morning, it happens, even the great and powerful Don, can be a just for tomorrow guy every now and again. what i heard then and what i herd now, as i step back into the here and now, are two entirely different notions,o you all get the joy of reading what i write without my normal period of listening, off the cuff as it is.
in this official crazy season, as i happen to call the daze before my annual clean date, i am struck daily by fits of comparing who i was and who i am going to be with who i am today. the irony here is: that i do NOT know who i will be, even the ELEVENTH STEP says, that our own true will for ourselves is but a glimpse…
in that same vein, reading the just for tomorrow, fits that theme to a tee. yes i wish i could be more social, and flow through social situations with a grace that i still do not possess. HOWEVER, looking back at where i came from, i have mad enormous strides in that area of my life, only because i have worked steps and stuck around, for more than a few revolutions around the sun. i will not say something ridiculous such as i have given it “110%” as there really is nothing more than 100% and those who spout that off and just showing their sheeple like ignorance, as it is no different than ”déjà vu, all over again.” oxymoronic and not even ironic.
anyhow, i have digress, so looking at my place on my recovery journey, whether or not i have given it my best effort, day in and day out, is often where i go in my crazy season. today, well today, i am way out of town for a family function and it appears in my dilly-dallying to get here yesterday, i missed out on some juicy bits of family drama.of well, there is a part of me that wants to know and a larger part of me that woke up this morning not caring about what happened yesterday afternoon, between my elders. what i do know is that it is time to head on over to the breakfast nook, see what they are up to today and move along, even if i am not as well as i think i want to be. it is a great day to be clean.
∞ DT ∞