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ok, this is starting to get very old. the same readings have been around since way before my time and for the past few days, i have been seeing something different in them. today is no exception, and now i am beginning to wonder if i have ever really read this piece of literature before.
the real question i have about the reading is do i really want to reclaim my life from the wreckage of the past. truthfully, looking at my past life from my current vantage point, there was not a whole lot there that i really wanted. my relationships (those i still had) were shallow and superficial. i was living paycheck to paycheck without accumulating anything of material or spiritual value. i watched a bunch of television and hardly left my room, much less my house. and the routine of getting and using and finding the ways and means to get more was really starting to wear me down. so in this respect there was not a whole lot of life worth living.
since coming to recovery i have been given the opportunity to create a new life and i have exercised that option. the only burden that this new life presented me was the debt of consequences created during my active addiction. so in this respect it is wonderful to have a tool to remove that cloud from the current manifestation of my life. so i guess i am reclaiming my life from the wreckage of my past by repaying that debt through the ninth step process. and this morning i am grateful i have a way to be more than i have ever been without the shame of my past clouding my present and future.
∞ DT ∞