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i am sitting here on my first day of vacation totally flipping out about what i need to accomplish before i can leave for hawaii this morning. i have a hundred threads of thought running through my head and am unable to concentrate on a single one. and yet i still am feeling a sense of hope and grateful that today i can do what i need to and move forward.
this vacation is totally a gift from GOD and is the result, maybe even a reward, for getting clean and staying on the path of recovery. i am travelling to celebrate my recover with ten thousand or so other addicts with whom i share my recovery, then i get to enjoy a week in a condo that was a given to me because i accomplished the task of earning my bachelor of computer science engineering degree. for the first time ever i will assume very little cost in the process of vacationing, i actually planned ahead and saved enough material resources to pay for everything up front. and that in and of itself is a miracle. for this vacation there are no fronts from the consumer credit companies. i will not come back from this trip worse off financially then when i left and for the first time in my life i have delayed gratification and worked towards a goal without stumbling.

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

a very interesting thought and an accomplishment in which i will take a bit of pride. i would love to say that i did this all myself, but that would be dishonest. i had a sponsor who had the faith in me to encourage my dreams, i had friends in recovery who showed me that this could be done, i have a program that teaches me a new way to live and i have a loving HIGHER POWER that provided the tools and resources to allow me to succeed.
so in the long run, if i forget to bring something, or do something this morning before getting on the plane, it will be alright. i have been taken care of and can be grateful for whatever the rest of this long day will bring!
∞ aloha all! DT  ∞