โ trusting in the loving care of my Higher Power โ
Posted: Wed, Nov 9, 2005 05:17:34 AM
making GOD laugh by making a plan or two always seemed to me to be counter-productive. after all if i remain living in fear of my plans and GOD's plans being two different things, i will plan to do nothing, because what is the point? not that i have been moving forward at light speed with any new projects in my life, but the turtle's pace i am making, still produces progress.
i spent too many years avoiding forward progress of my life, among the symptoms of my disease is the tendency towards fatalism. nothing ever seemed to work out the way i desired, so why even bother, it was so much easier back then to just get high and let the world pass me by!
today, i do not believe the lie that i am incapable of seeing my plans come out the way i desire. after all i planned to get my bachelor's degree by the time i was fifty years old and i did it with two years to spare. am i happy with the new debt load of student loans i have to pay back? actually no, but i accept that there is a cost for everything. any plans i want to see to the end, require the use of my resources, time, money, gasoline or whatever. when i started back to school, i often wondered whether or not i was doing the right thing, it seemed at times that i was certain to fail and at times it was difficult, but i walked forward with FAITH in GOD to care for me and GOD did! the evidence in my life seems to point towards a benevolent and caring force in my life that has similar plans for me as i do for myself.
so laughter or not, i do believe that i will exercise a bit of FAITH and move forward with my plans for my future and use the spiritual toolbox that has been given to me to craft those plans. life is, after all, far to short to sit around and be miserable!
∞ DT ∞
i spent too many years avoiding forward progress of my life, among the symptoms of my disease is the tendency towards fatalism. nothing ever seemed to work out the way i desired, so why even bother, it was so much easier back then to just get high and let the world pass me by!
today, i do not believe the lie that i am incapable of seeing my plans come out the way i desire. after all i planned to get my bachelor's degree by the time i was fifty years old and i did it with two years to spare. am i happy with the new debt load of student loans i have to pay back? actually no, but i accept that there is a cost for everything. any plans i want to see to the end, require the use of my resources, time, money, gasoline or whatever. when i started back to school, i often wondered whether or not i was doing the right thing, it seemed at times that i was certain to fail and at times it was difficult, but i walked forward with FAITH in GOD to care for me and GOD did! the evidence in my life seems to point towards a benevolent and caring force in my life that has similar plans for me as i do for myself.
so laughter or not, i do believe that i will exercise a bit of FAITH and move forward with my plans for my future and use the spiritual toolbox that has been given to me to craft those plans. life is, after all, far to short to sit around and be miserable!
∞ DT ∞