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Posted: Thu, Nov 9, 2006 07:44:28 AM
i still have a responsibility to live my life and make plans for the future. if i refuse to accept responsibility for my life, i am still making plans -- plans for a shallow, boring existence.
well living my life by default has never been a shallow boring existence, actually it seems a bit exciting, i just not have been satisfied EVER with the results. so as the reading seems to suggest making a plan or two is a good thing, planning for the results is where i get into a whole lot of trouble. the whole part about dealing with the results of my plans leads my into a bunch of planning for the various outcomes, making contingency plans as it were. and the energy that i put into making those alternate plans could be better used to actually doing the footwork to make my plans come to pass. and no i am not talking about self-willing the outcome, i have great practice at that. no what i am talking about is doing what i need to do to further the plans i make. for example if i wish to purchase a house there are a few things that i need to do. i really doubt that GOD is just going to drop one into my life -- i could pray for it and it may happen, but i prefer to do things like save up for a down payment, clean up my credit, got out from some of my debts, and look for a house within my modest means. none of those actions is denying my FAITH in the ability of my HIGHER POWER to provide for my needs, but each of those actions are things i can do. i still may not get the house, but each of those actions better my life and increase the chances that my plan of purchasing a house has the ability to occur. and although that example may seem a stretch, it can be a template for other plans i make. make the plan, identify the actions i can take to help the plan along and then leave the results up to my HIGHER POWER. a simple recipe, but one that i often have trouble following. i forget that my wants and my needs are not always the same thing and being the human i am i want to control and manipulate the outcome -- I WANT WHAT I WANT AND I WANT IT NOW DAMMIT!
and so it goes, perhaps some day i will reach the ideal of following that simple solution, and maybe that day is today, at least for this tinny slice of time. life is far to short for me to expend my energy of controlling outcomes and at least i can accept that in this moment. who knows how long it will last!
well living my life by default has never been a shallow boring existence, actually it seems a bit exciting, i just not have been satisfied EVER with the results. so as the reading seems to suggest making a plan or two is a good thing, planning for the results is where i get into a whole lot of trouble. the whole part about dealing with the results of my plans leads my into a bunch of planning for the various outcomes, making contingency plans as it were. and the energy that i put into making those alternate plans could be better used to actually doing the footwork to make my plans come to pass. and no i am not talking about self-willing the outcome, i have great practice at that. no what i am talking about is doing what i need to do to further the plans i make. for example if i wish to purchase a house there are a few things that i need to do. i really doubt that GOD is just going to drop one into my life -- i could pray for it and it may happen, but i prefer to do things like save up for a down payment, clean up my credit, got out from some of my debts, and look for a house within my modest means. none of those actions is denying my FAITH in the ability of my HIGHER POWER to provide for my needs, but each of those actions are things i can do. i still may not get the house, but each of those actions better my life and increase the chances that my plan of purchasing a house has the ability to occur. and although that example may seem a stretch, it can be a template for other plans i make. make the plan, identify the actions i can take to help the plan along and then leave the results up to my HIGHER POWER. a simple recipe, but one that i often have trouble following. i forget that my wants and my needs are not always the same thing and being the human i am i want to control and manipulate the outcome -- I WANT WHAT I WANT AND I WANT IT NOW DAMMIT!
and so it goes, perhaps some day i will reach the ideal of following that simple solution, and maybe that day is today, at least for this tinny slice of time. life is far to short for me to expend my energy of controlling outcomes and at least i can accept that in this moment. who knows how long it will last!
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