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well it has been one of those mornings where everything i do takes a few minutes longer than i expect. it is what it is and taking a few minutes out of the limited time i do have this morning, is certainly the best thing i can do, right here and right now. even with some clean time under my belt, i certainly do have an issue or two, accepting what life happens to pitch at me on most days. i have expectations and things i believe i may be entitled to and both of those get in the way of being okay with my life. in fact, there are days when FML seems not only appropriate but <GASP> justified! when that happens, the first thing i usually do not reach for, is the means to restore balance between my expectations and my perception of reality. no the first thing i reach for, is someone or something to blame, to relieve me of my burden of having to accept of changing my perspective. ingrained habits are the hardest to have removed. that habit, happens to be one that i created long before i used and polished to a very nice finish in active addiction. i want what i want, when i want it and fVck everything else. not a very spiritual lens through which to view reality.
i do have a whole lot of data to analyze today, so although i might be able to write hundreds and hundreds of words about this topic, i will accept that my time is limited and post this as is. yes, i can have a better day, if i allow myself a moment to seek the balance i desire, instead of forcing things to go the way i DESIRE.

∞ DT ∞