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my perceptions of the world around me was certainly one of the reasons i used. as i sit here this morning, hungry and without my morning coffee, i realize how dependent i have become on that facet of my daily routine. i feel grumpy and unfocused. the world has sharp edges and i am certainly not at my peak performance, as i sit down to jot down a few thoughts. i know a workout will help me get “into” my day and soon enough i will be able to take care of my gut and my head.
as i sat this morning, i really did not “hear” anything, as this was a morning where i really dipped down into the quiet. what i feel now, that i have a minute to contemplate, is that there is a sh!t-ton of stuff happening in the world today that is not to my liking. one thing that “rings a bell” is a conservative snowflake, cut and paste posting on Facebook, whining about how tired they are of COVID-19 and its affects on the world around us. i take issue with a lot of the content of that post, but being “tired” of something that is here to stay and will continue to affect everything, really makes me wonder what it is they really are asking for.
i know that when i grew weary of something, at least back in the day, i did what i could to take my mind off of it, and most of the time, it was a big dose of something. the world did not change when i returned to reality, but the edges were certainly softer and even though the news was the same, i could now “handle” it. it is not the fault of the media that the marches against police brutality and racism are part of this summer of discontent. nor is it the fault of the media that the pandemic shut-down the economy and brought misery world-wide. there is a whole lot blame to go around, but the truth is, things are the way they are and pretending that if i close my eyes and wish hard enough, things will go back to “normal,” is not an activity i choose to engage in, just for today.
being real and living in these trying times, means that i NEED to take better care of myself. the reason i have not had breakfast or coffee this morning, is part of that deal for me. i get to go see the doctor and have my annual physical this morning and blood work is part of that visit. instead of whining, which is an activity i enjoy from time to time, i will allow myself to be a bit uncomfortable, as i tour the neighborhood and burn off some of the calories i have yet to consume. i refuse to close my eyes and pretend that if i wish hard enough everything will return to the way i want it to be. instead, i believe that i will take constructive action to make my life, just a little bit better, just for today.

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