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Mon, Mar 15, 2021 07:42:14 AM
🌫 terribly flawed 🌫
posted: Mon, Mar 15, 2021 07:42:14 AM
this morning what i was struck by was the irony of my admission of believing i was broken was the number of times i said to a sponsee, friend or peer, that were certainly NOT broken and that lie was keeping them from moving forward. man oh man, was that a slap in the face, this morning. i am sure part of my denial about what the real lie for me, was to assuage my fragile self-image. i was “better” than the average bear, if i never owned my belief that i was broken for a very, very, very long time. i am truly amazed how long i held on to the lie that was keeping me from moving forward.
moving forward this morning, i have two feet or so of heavy wet snow to rearrange and plenty of time to chill today, as my car will not make it down my alley-way. it is nice though, to be able to stay clean for long enough that i GET to see others achieve “long-term” recovery:
i really at am a loss for words today. grateful that they found something wrong with my Dad in the hospital. sad that he threw an abscess and needed to go in the middle of the night, by ambulance at the start of a historic snowstorm. hopefully there will be enough traffic up and down my ally this morning, to let me get out of the house, later this afternoon, so i can go visit him. the time has come, however for round one of snow removal, or better put snow re-arrangement. it is a good day to be clean and even if i am stuck in my house, i have enough to do to keep me busy.
moving forward this morning, i have two feet or so of heavy wet snow to rearrange and plenty of time to chill today, as my car will not make it down my alley-way. it is nice though, to be able to stay clean for long enough that i GET to see others achieve “long-term” recovery:
Larry Q.
SEVEN (7) years clean!
Keep coming and being a 'part of' my recovery
i really at am a loss for words today. grateful that they found something wrong with my Dad in the hospital. sad that he threw an abscess and needed to go in the middle of the night, by ambulance at the start of a historic snowstorm. hopefully there will be enough traffic up and down my ally this morning, to let me get out of the house, later this afternoon, so i can go visit him. the time has come, however for round one of snow removal, or better put snow re-arrangement. it is a good day to be clean and even if i am stuck in my house, i have enough to do to keep me busy.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
Another Look!
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§ active addiction sets me apart from society, isolating me § 685 words ➥ Monday, March 15, 2010 by: donnot
♦ the get-togethers after meetings are good opportunities ♦ 638 words ➥ Tuesday, March 15, 2011 by: donnot
½ i no longer have to live a life of isolation ½ 292 words ➥ Thursday, March 15, 2012 by: donnot
∑ i learn to make small talk at these impromptu gatherings ∑ 681 words ➥ Friday, March 15, 2013 by: donnot
± once it becomes evident, how terribly flawed i am ± 715 words ➥ Sunday, March 15, 2015 by: donnot
⋰ feeling ** a part of ** ⋱ 730 words ➥ Tuesday, March 15, 2016 by: donnot
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😏 familiarity and friendliness, 😝 588 words ➥ Friday, March 15, 2019 by: donnot
🛍 IF i allow 🛒 526 words ➥ Sunday, March 15, 2020 by: donnot
😨 the lie 😱 586 words ➥ Tuesday, March 15, 2022 by: donnot
🤜 goodwill and 🤛 593 words ➥ Wednesday, March 15, 2023 by: donnot
😓 FEAR is 😵 346 words ➥ Friday, March 15, 2024 by: donnot
☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) The highest excellence is like (that of) water. The excellence
of water appears in its benefiting all things, and in its occupying,
without striving (to the contrary), the low place which all men dislike.
Hence (its way) is near to (that of) the Tao.