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the pain and confusion of everyday life is not something i am doing well these days. i am living in the land of unmet expectations and it is driving completely and absolutely BONKERS! this whole life in the slow lane of getting my foot past the HR door in pursuit of a new gig has my head spinning, even though i still have over sixty days to make my move. the changes at my current job, however, are driving me to distraction and now i will have to deal with a new boss and his way of doing things and i am more than a bit apprehensive about what that entails. as i sat this morning, those fears and doubts kept bubbling up to the surface and i found myself attempting to swallow them and listen for the quiet. when i finally quit trying so hard, i got the quiet i desired.
the echoes of what the POWER that fuels my recovery has been, keep coming back to haunt me, like some vengeful spirit seeking to extract its pound of flesh. i have to remember the price i paid for the spiritual path i am on. what once was, is no longer valid and when i trip back into the land of a HIGHER POWER that never worked for me, i get all fuckered up. what i heard this morning, once i finally let go, is to have a bit of FAITH and keep putting myself out there, that is the only way i am going to get the result, a new gig by the end of August, that i DESIRE.
moving on, it is time to get out and get some miles in, before the heat builds up. life at my current job is going to be “interesting” to say the least. the one thing i can do about it, is to take my frustrations out by sweating off a pound or two of water, as i tour my neighborhood. it is a good day to be clean and a better day to have just a bit of FAITH, that i will get everything i NEED, if i pay attention and exercise the opportunities i am given.

∞ DT ∞