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is one **test** in my FAITH in recovery, namely mine. i know that the fellowship states that i NEED to have a loving and caring HIGHER POWER, if i hope to last in recovery, BUT i am doing quite well with a POWER that fuels my recovery sans any human characteristics or attributes, thank you very much. WHEW, quite the mouthful there, it just sort of flowed out. it is true, yesterday was far from a good day for me. nothing major, but enough minor and petty things to drive me to distraction. this morning, after a less than restful night of sleep, i can see that i carried my flurry of activities and failures with me to bed, instead of consigning them into the care of that POWER. my lack of FAITH, has left me a bit tired and certainly a bit on the grumpy side this morning, and i have to remember that as i drive into the office.
it is a good day to be clean and yes, with a bit of perseverance i will rectify the mistakes i made yesterday and move on. i know that days like that happen. i know that nothing is, as one of my peers has a tendency to say, fVcked. i survived and was willing to once again ask for the power to live a life in active recovery, before my feet hit the floor. all is well, even when i think it just may not be so.

∞ DT ∞