Some memes

of the living is a better place to be, than the world in which i found myself living in for the past seventeen months. i have written about that dank, dreary and grey life enough lately and the time has come to celebrate my return to a life i can be grateful for having. accepting that others may want to fade away, is hard thing for me to do and yet, the closer i get to accepting the fact, the greater my sense of peace and serenity. i know part of what is going on is abject FEAR of witnessing how my life will go, even though i am doing what i can to have a better life, physically, emotionally and spiritually. i want to have a life that does not revolve around a constant barrage of TV reruns and barely stretches beyond my recliner. that may be my fate but i do not have accept that as fact, at least not today.
speaking of today:

Kathy Mc.,
CONGRATS on Twenty-one (21) years clean.
Thank you for keeping me grounded in the world of the living.

this morning, as i sat, i kept coming back to how i can celebrate being part of the world of the living. sure i can mouth the words and fill this space with a pithy bon mot, but does that really express the joy i have found recently in my life. i am not so sure that words are adequate to express what is bubbling up from the deep dark recesses of my soul. i have a job that is challenging and without a doubt going to continue to be so. i have a physical exercise program that is allowing me to look and feel better. i am developing deep and intimate relationships and i find myself more willing to accept the offerings those in my life, choose to send my way. i guess i should just leave it at that and say that this day, i will see what i can do to celebrate my life and the affect i have on others. today, i will strive top enlighten, brighten and ease the burden of living on all of those who choose to be part of my life.

∞ DT ∞