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some days i wonder if i am really getting better, but i do not have any doubts about that today, so i can safely move on to something else. and something else is a better me today. although i am kind of dreading what i have to face today -- NEW BUSINESS! i know that those with whom i am sharing this experience with are just as passionate about what we think about the fellowship that gave us our new lives as i am. i also realize that they, like me express that passion with a vocal, seemingly confrontational manner. so what is this addict to do? well, i can twist and turn about it and get myself worked into a tizzy! or i can let go and practice the principles that are suggested at the end of the reading -- patience and tolerance.
so basically the choice of how i react to my fellow participants behaviors is mine and mine alone today. and you know, that fact in and of itself is enough to give me the freedom i need today to recover just that little bit more.
you may be wondering "wot the fuck dude, you are actually writing a blog today, did you relapse and run away to hollyweird or something?"
well the truth is, i have finally got to a place where sleeping in to avoid being part of today is not what i want to do this morning. when i woke-up i got up! which is something new and different for this week away from home. i really feel hat i have had a minor paradigm switch this morning and am actually grateful for the chance to help guide my fellowship into the future. i want to be part of that process today and am looking forward to what this day will bring. am i getting better? i must be! at least today!

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