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is what i feel, when i finally see that it is not up to me to change the way i am, but it is up to me to accept the way others choose to be. if someone chooses to live in the oblivion of self-obsession, so be it, been there, done that, got the T-shirt.what came upon me this morning, as i sat and listened to the “WhatEver” was a sense of being okay with what is of who i am right now. i have a job that is paying me well and although there may be a few bumps in the road with my current position, i am not stressed about the consequences of allowing myself the freedom to be a part of the team, instead of clinging to an identity that keeps me apart from, holding on to the little bit of turf i have established. my unemployment check has yet to arrive in my bank account, but all my bills are paid, including the costs of our summer vacation. i have finally taken the step to move into a more modern car stereo and if history is any indication, that may mean someone will run into me and total my car, as that is what always seems to happen. instead of fuming and fretting over what “may” happen, i am taking it in stride, speaking of which, i need to head on out and get my miles in, as i have more dentistry on tap this morning and i need to work out. it is a good day to be clean and let go of what i think i “know” about others and see them for what they are, through the eyes of my recovery program.

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