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Sat, Apr 29, 2006 10:31:55 PM
about nothing in particular Ω
posted: Sat, Apr 29, 2006 10:31:55 PM
just needed to write this evening. i have been drifting along for the last four hours. drifting on some invisible current that has led me back to my room and into this little exercise in public sharing. i know something inside has changed, that i am not the same man i was a week ago. physically i am eight days in the future, emotionally i am sort of numb and spiritually i am quite ambivalent. i really cannot quantify or qualify what is going on and most of the time this would be a problem for me. in fact, i am currently at peace with where i am at this exact moment. although the uncertainty of where i will be next is kind of spooky, i do believe that i am in no danger and that there is some sort of cosmic flux that will carry me forward to where i will need to be, at least this evening.
so basically this entry is a free form voicing of thoughts that are going on in my head -- a permanent record so to speak, of this exact moment. in fact, in the morning when i read this i will probably be tempted to delete this entry and send it into the bit bucket of the digital void.
and as i write this i am beginning to get a sense of what is happening, i feel like the cup that has been filled above the brim with water, but the surface tension of the water molecules prevent the water from flowing over the rim. i know a mixed metaphor but what the hell, shit happens even to someone like me who has a fairly exact command of language.
so my experience is coming to end and in less than twelve hours i will begin my journey back to my life in colorado and the friends, family and people who know and love me. so for anyone who is reading this little ditty, rest assured that i am alright and right where i am supposed to be.
so basically this entry is a free form voicing of thoughts that are going on in my head -- a permanent record so to speak, of this exact moment. in fact, in the morning when i read this i will probably be tempted to delete this entry and send it into the bit bucket of the digital void.
and as i write this i am beginning to get a sense of what is happening, i feel like the cup that has been filled above the brim with water, but the surface tension of the water molecules prevent the water from flowing over the rim. i know a mixed metaphor but what the hell, shit happens even to someone like me who has a fairly exact command of language.
so my experience is coming to end and in less than twelve hours i will begin my journey back to my life in colorado and the friends, family and people who know and love me. so for anyone who is reading this little ditty, rest assured that i am alright and right where i am supposed to be.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
2) It is only by this moderation that there is effected an early return
(to man's normal state). That early return is what I call the repeated
accumulation of the attributes (of the Tao). With that repeated accumulation
of those attributes, there comes the subjugation (of every obstacle
to such return). Of this subjugation we know not what shall be the
limit; and when one knows not what the limit shall be, he may be the
ruler of a state.