↔ considering how i can live differently in the future ↔
Posted: Fri, May 19, 2006 06:15:38 AM
sometimes it takes a special effort to jog my thinking out of the daily rut and onto a higher track, and boy is that true for me! i read this little ditty this morning and it was one of those that i swore i had never seen before, in fact i wanted to rush to my computer and see what i wrote about this a year ago.
what does not come up for me is a rehash of my tenth step. this entry speaks to me about adding a piece to my day that i had not considered even though i have read this entry more than once. what i feel this morning is that the reading is asking me to add a bit of eleventh step work to my daily tenth step inventory process, expanding the little bit of work i do in that respect. why do i feel as if this is something new? well for one, although i consider my behaviors, actions, feelings, accomplishments and what i did to maintain my recovery as part of my inventory, what i do not ponder on is how i blocked my HIGHER POWER‘s will for me throughout the course of my waking day, and how i can be more open to that in the days that come. up to now i have considered that morning work and part of my eleventh step daily practice. and of course i am more than a bit resistant to change, especially when it comes to my daily routines --- :-O ---
so what am i feeling right now after thinking about changing my maintenance routine? well a bit put-off at how i could have missed this for so long. grateful for another channel to grow through. and curious to see what the effects of adding this little exercise to my evening routine will be. just normal stuff for the all to human addict today. so off to the races and time to see what life will present me today!
what does not come up for me is a rehash of my tenth step. this entry speaks to me about adding a piece to my day that i had not considered even though i have read this entry more than once. what i feel this morning is that the reading is asking me to add a bit of eleventh step work to my daily tenth step inventory process, expanding the little bit of work i do in that respect. why do i feel as if this is something new? well for one, although i consider my behaviors, actions, feelings, accomplishments and what i did to maintain my recovery as part of my inventory, what i do not ponder on is how i blocked my HIGHER POWER‘s will for me throughout the course of my waking day, and how i can be more open to that in the days that come. up to now i have considered that morning work and part of my eleventh step daily practice. and of course i am more than a bit resistant to change, especially when it comes to my daily routines --- :-O ---
so what am i feeling right now after thinking about changing my maintenance routine? well a bit put-off at how i could have missed this for so long. grateful for another channel to grow through. and curious to see what the effects of adding this little exercise to my evening routine will be. just normal stuff for the all to human addict today. so off to the races and time to see what life will present me today!
∞ DT ∞