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in simplicity, to say the least, is a confusing manner to get this exercise rolling. as i read the source material, i really was confused with what the headline had to do with what was presented. i could go on and on about what might be a better way to get this rolling, but what i took from the content of the material is that my spiritual path need not be complicated by what i may think it “needs” to be. after a decade and a half seeking a spiritual solution through a “buffet” of practices and beliefs, finding THE one that fit me, without any alterations required, was quite a relief. ironically, i find myself a whole lot more tolerant of those who profess a spiritual path based in their religious path and have had to encourage them to embrace that path when they are working with me. obfuscation of what they believe to spare my feelings is all smoke and mirrors and does nothing to help them to transform their HOPE into FAITH.
working with one of the men who choose to call me their sponsor last night, we had quite the discussion about HOPE, FAITH and STEP TWO. i actually did my homework and had read the available source material, refreshing my knowledge of what this step was all about for me. i was far to eager to drag him into my world view although we came to concordance after a bit of discussion. he has an agenda to get through to his FIFTH STEP before the consequences of his last bout of active addiction are manifest. i, too, am attempting to get him there, BUT, i know that the foundation needs to be established before moving into that house of pain. i can sense his frustration every time i say we need to “slow his roll,” but in this arena it has been my experience that rush through the steps is a rush to relapse. we will arrive at that promised land soon enough.
this is one of the places where i am tempering my opinion: we are moving far too quickly, with my feeling: he needs to release what he has written. i can see the the yin and the yang in this and i know that i need to look at the whole, to find the balance that will benefit him and provide me a level of comfort that i am doing right by him and that balance, IMHO 😜, will be achieved if i listen to what the POWER that fuels my recovery is attempting to tell me. when i remember my spiritual path is all about balance and duality, i am certainly a whole lot more sane and better prepared to connect with the world around me. life is certainly not a strange and unusual trip for me today, even if the tooth that was scheduled to get pulled on April 20th, decided to drop out of my mouth this morning, as predicted a decade ago when i had my gum surgery. now i have one less place to trap bacteria and build up an abscess and that is not a bad thing. it is a good day to be clean and celebrate that i do have a path to a sanity i never had before, just for today.

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