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and spirituality, is exactly what attracted me to this fellowship. do not get me wrong, i was far from open-minded about this spiritual stuff, but those who were here, certainly were and their deeds matched their words: my journey to find a concept of a higher power, did not in any way, shape or form, have to end up in the same place as theirs'. the freedom they gave me was never reflected in any other fellowship, even though those members allegedly held that to be true, even when they were ending each meeting with a Christian prayer, because they said they were honoring “traditions.”
looking back at those days, while kind of sort of fun, really does little to enhance my recovery journey today. the only person that came between me and my concept of the POWER that fuels my recovery, was me, myself and i. that too, is a story that has been told many times and in more than one way, so i will leave it to the reader to backtrack through my corpus of blogs to uncover that for themselves. what popped off the stack this morning, was the notion that i was being more than a bit close-minded about something one of the men i sponsor said to me the other day, about seeking a diagnosis for one of his most troubling behaviors. i did not however, voice my objections to that part of his journey, even though over and over again, he had rationalized and justified doing it, without any feedback from me. i said, IF he felt the need to do so, by all means, check it out and i am more than certain he will get the result he desires, an excuse for why he behaves that way and a pass at looking at it, when that time comes.
the other thing that filled my awareness this morning, was a certain feeling of fulfillment and contentment when i considered what my spiritual condition happened to be. more and more i am seeing that how i think of and treat myself, reflects on how i think and treat others as i walk through my day. not having GOD by my side has created a place in my heart to be awake and seek the opportunities that are provided to me by the POWER that fuels my recovery, whatever that just may be. this morning, i am seeing that it is time to get rolling on my day, so i can accomplish all that i have the desire to accomplish, just for today.

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