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alignment, and balance are gifts of recovery that i often take for granted. it was a cinch in the old days to feel how out balance and disharmonious my life was, especially when i was struggling to align my program to something a bit more spiritual than self-will run riot. after a minute clean, i just expect to have harmony and balance in my life, because i am practiced at being aligned to the principles that allow me the opportunity to stay clean today. case in point, i decided to sleep in and ease my way into my Saturday morning, instead of pounding up and down Mount Sanitas, before heading to my home group. my body has been telling me, that i need to take a break from the intense activity that is my daily workout and allow it the opportunity to heal up and strengthen up. i want to ignore the aches and pains i have been slinging at myself and attribute them to aging, when it is in fact a symptom of over-training. my FEAR, here is that if i choose to stop or cut back for even a day, i will backslide into matching my neighbor's fitness and “spare tire.” putting that down in writing i see how irrational that FEAR is, as i have found that being fit, is a more harmonious manner in which i live these days.
taking a harmonious life for granted, even when i am suffering the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, is something i need to move beyond. perhaps, this evening, when i sit for my daily inventory i will allow myself the freedom to see if i really made it through to a harmonious and balanced day, and if i was aligned to the principles i say i practice. with that in mind, it is time to go out and be a part of the world.

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