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to my purpose, whatever that may be. i know that my purpose is certainly not the obsession i have been stuck in about a conversation i may or may not have on Saturday morning. i am also pretty sure that winning my fantasy football leagues is not part of my purpose either, even though i kicked ass in one, and failed to secure my first win, in the other. what i “got” this morning, when i let go of both of those obsessions that are taking far too much space in my head, was that perhaps, just maybe, my purpose is just to be present for what is going on in my life, listen to what others are telling me and let go of any expectations that are crippling my spiritual growth. none of that trio is that hard to accomplish, save for the last one, as i am very good about planning outcomes and having expectations about them. be that as it may, i certainly did not get freaked out about how slow and weird traffic was this morning, on this day after Indigenous Peoples Day, which may just be a symptom of the notion that i may be doing better than i think i am.
my serenity was rocked this weekend, with the attack on Israel and i have very conflicting feelings on the whole affair. i understand the motives behind the attack, but killing and maiming innocent persons to get a point across is out of what i believe i can support. the response from the attacked party is the exact same, collateral damage of non-combatants is okay as long as this is war. as a result, i have to be cautious on Twitter with what i like and what i boost as i do not want this to become a distraction from what i see my purpose on that platform to be, boosting those who “bonk” the miscreants that love to peddle half-truths, lies and outright fabrications and pass them off as “alternate facts.” every time i open the app, i feel as if i am walking through a minefield that will destroy the work i have accomplished and shut down the relationships i have worked so hard to build. i know that if i step away, i can avoid this whole pile steaming 💩! of course what i feel and what i think are at odds here. i think i need to be safe, i feel that i need to continue with the little bit of work i have been doing, so the battle rages on.
it is, however, time to post this to the web, let it go out into the ether and allow myself the freedom to get my work done. life will go on, with or without Twitter (X) and i will go on, with or without a win in fantasy football. i am okay today and it is time to live up to my purpose and finish my long overdue project, just for today.

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