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and commitment to the process of my recovery journey, is a bit of a twist to what my source material was all about. it is, however, apropos to my life in this instant. right here and right now, i feel a bit off course because i am not actively starting another journey through the steps. always working steps was how my recovery has been and this bit of diligently working steps ten, eleven and twelve in my daily life, has be centered and basically pain free, spiritually that is. there really are no biggies looming in my life, as i have a job, i have the funds to pay for my trip to Africa, my leg is healing and got me across five and a quarter miles today, spiritually, i am connected to my peers and my fellowship, as never before. personally i feel better about who and what i am and am willing to share that with those who are part of my life. my commitment to the process, means doing the deed on a daily basis and allowing what is to permeate who i am and leave the what is not behind.
where the patience comes in for me, is keeping in touch with my spiritual self and when the gnawing of minor events, fill me with fear, anger, and angst, become prepared to do what it takes to get back on the step working train. that may mean seeking out a new sponsor, which i dread having to do, but that may be part of living up to my commitment to my process of recovery. today, i have a few places to be and a few places i want to be and i am close to being able to step away and go there. i am also ready to take care of myself, as well, which means, at least next on my hit parade, is a cigar and some football before my commitment to see my family. it is a good day to be clean and to patiently commit myself to a process that has brought me this far from the pits of active addiction.

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