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possibly go wrong? great question and up until a month ago, i was just cruising through life: i was working, my leg was healing up, the mole on my head was just a bit bothersome when my comb touched it, and i was staying fit and looking forward to climbing some 14'ers. then, it was discovered that mole was a melanoma, work has gotten weird, i could not even finish a 13'er and my leg refuse to allow me to run. dang it all, just when i accepted all of that, my surgery got bumped and now i have an additional six days of doing my best to let go. to put it simply, my world toppled and i became frantic, confused and felt more than a little bit out of sorts, in fact i even had the desire to use, two days ago.
today, i may not have re balanced my life, but i am no longer fretting and fuming about the unknowable. i can take a breath and allow myself the freedom to live my life as if it was six weeks ago, more or less. that does not mean denying what is, it just means accepting the what is and moving on. i am really okay and six days makes little difference when it comes to cancer. next week, when i return to work, i will need to be a bit more detail oriented and do my best to see the issues with my code, before i put it up for review. most of all, i have to be diligent in living the program of recovery that provide me a life worthy of being balanced. just for today, i will let go, relax and see what the day brings as i do nothing but play my silly game and let the world spin as it will.

∞ DT ∞