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with the POWER that fuels my recovery. some mornings, no matter how early i get rolling i end up behind where i want to be. this morning was one of those days. i had every intention of being out on the streets by now, but instead i decided to write a little function for blog page and here i am, 30 minutes later, quite satisfied by what i accomplished but behind where i want to be.
in fact, i do believe i will go run and write this when i get back. CU soon.
okay i am back and ready to pound this out. so what came to me, as i let go and listened was a couple of examples of bad behavior yesterday, not that i am in place to judge, as i shared more than one juicy bit myself. that was addressed last night in my TENTH STEP, so i can move forward. no what i am talking about was the behavior of two specific dog owners with whom i got to interact with yesterday. both of the people, have service dogs, and both of them take very little responsibility for what occurs. when i asked one of them why there service dog was not in attendance i was told it was because of other people, they pet him and distract from his purpose. when i asked the other owner why they were covered from head to toe with scratches, the reply was that they had just saved their dog from being swept away by a fast moving stream into a culvert. when the free roaming service animal, got into a scuffle with another dog who was leashed and minding its own business. it was of course the other owner's fault for not letting go of his leash.
what i see in all of that spew, is a metaphor for my relationship with THE POWER that fuels my recovery. i am, much to my chagrin at times. allowed to roam free and without any sort of spiritual leash. when i am checking in with that POWER and looking for the cues for the next right thing to do, i am rewarded by getting the direction i need. when i am just off on my own, running willy-nilly, i often end up in dangerous, or in the case of active addiction, fatal situations. unlike a canine companion, i have the intellect to choose my path, that POWER does and will send me enough information and warning when i am straying into situations that may be detrimental for me. just like a responsible dog owner, that POWER does not let me just walk into a fast moving body of water without first warning me that doing do could be fatal. and even if i CHOOSE to ignore those warnings, that POWER has rescued me from the follies of my self-will. i know who is ultimately responsible for my recovery, and as much as i want to shift blame around, it was not the POWER that fuels my recovery that decided to take a swim in deep fast-moving river, it was me. i saw the circumstances and chose to ignore the consequences and since i am not a dog, i cannot blame the outcome on the POWER that fuels my recovery.
as to the object lessons? well, they are who they are, and hopefully their canine companions will survive their lapse of judgement. i can and will look for the warnings that i am straying or being distracted by enhancing my contact with the POWER that fuels my recovery, after all that is my part in this relationship.

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