Blog entry for:

for the ways and means to improve my conscious contact with GOD. this has been the theme over the past week both in the daily readings and in my life. ever since completing my second step i have been looking for new and different ways to extend the conscious contact i have already developed. i have allowed my prayers to morph a bit. everything is revolving around how i can transcend the human limitations of growth. can i once again develop the FAITH and TRUST in GOD to move forward in my program? can i develop the FAITH and TRUST in my feelings and intuition to move forward in my life? or am i destined to be stuck here forever?
well, falling back on my experience to date implies that if allow this process to happen by letting go and getting out of the way, i can grow the FAITH and TRUST i need to progress. the part of me that is my disease is screaming these days that i am beyond hope and this is the best that it can get. the part of me that is my recovery is patiently waiting for me to once again see that letting go is what i need to do, if i want to get any better. do i accept that this is as good as it gets??? not by a long shot BUT (and it is a big one) i need to let go and see what happens and today i am having trouble letting go and letting the answers be revealed. so just for today i will continue to seek a spiritual solution for my human problems and see what happens.
∞ DT ∞