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gift i share with my peers in recovery, the recognition of our humanity. before i get into this topic., i have to let anyone, all three of you guys, know that this will be my one and only post on (X)-Twitter today. my simple protest to the ignorance of my fellow Americans in electing this shit-show for four years of chaos, uncertainty and doubt, may not cost President-Elect Elonia anything, as i block all his zombie troll accounts and never click on any of the crap ads his toxic app offers me. today, for my sanity, i will choose to detox from this vile platform and encourage my fellow Fellas to bonk on, even if i am not here to amplify their voices for one twenty-four hour period. i will be back, tomorrow.
now for something totally different bit of sanity and spirituality. 😁
i can say without any reservations that i was totally confused and certainly more than a bit wary of what was to come, when i first walked into the rooms of the fellowship that is my lifeline today. 😵 i knew there was something here, that i may want someday, but that was not the day and it took another nine months for me to get clean and stay clean. my shame of using and “fronting” recovery in that seven month period, kept me away from this fellowship for another six months. when i finally started to get a clue that i was not going to be able to recover in that other “A,” at least i had a plan b, even if it took a another year to make it exclusive. i have to say, it was not what that other fellowship offered me, that separated me from them. no, it was me. i could not identify with my peers in that fellowship and for the most part did not “get” what they were trying to tell me. i did not “get” what i was hearing in this fellowship either, but my gut told me that these were my peeps and i just needed to keep coming back.
today, when i walk into a room of my peers, i feel a connection with all of them, even those with whom i have an issue. they are not at fault, just as i was not at fault all those days ago, about living in denial and what the effect their actions may have on those around them. as the fog of denial about how i affect the world lifts, i can learn to be more forgiving and less selfish and self-centered. i may be looking at the universe from it very center, but that does not mean the universe revolves around me. right here and right now, it is time for me to get moving into my day off and seeing what it is i can accomplish. just for today, i am grateful that i can share my humanity with those around me.

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