ฮผ of course, after some time in recovery, good things start happening in my life. ฮผ
Posted: Sun, Jan 20, 2008 11:02:31 AM
these, however, are truly gifts -- they are not promised to me just because i become member. all i am promised is freedom from addiction -- and it is more than enough!
yes the gifts are recovery are truly gifts, and when i consider whether or not i am being rewarded for staying clean. that is hardly the case, if i need to get down to be rewarded, i can go with the promise of FREEDOM from active addiction. HOWEVER, for me, that promise is not fulfilled unless i make the effort to live the program to the best of my ability.
yes, i have been given many gifts, some of them i am grateful for, some i take for granted and some i am none to pleased with some days. the inventory of those gifts is quite a lengthy process, and i am running up against a time constraint this morning. in fact, it is one of those gifts that i have mixed feelings about these days. service to the fellowship that has given me this manner of living is a gift, and one that i cherish most of the time. the lack of that feeling today is probably m,ore of a reflection on my current spiritual state than anything else.
so anyhow, it is time to move forward and show up a bit early.
yes i am grateful for my recovery and service to the fellowship is only one of the means by which i can show that gratitude, so this morning i am working on being grateful for a chance to serve.
yes the gifts are recovery are truly gifts, and when i consider whether or not i am being rewarded for staying clean. that is hardly the case, if i need to get down to be rewarded, i can go with the promise of FREEDOM from active addiction. HOWEVER, for me, that promise is not fulfilled unless i make the effort to live the program to the best of my ability.
yes, i have been given many gifts, some of them i am grateful for, some i take for granted and some i am none to pleased with some days. the inventory of those gifts is quite a lengthy process, and i am running up against a time constraint this morning. in fact, it is one of those gifts that i have mixed feelings about these days. service to the fellowship that has given me this manner of living is a gift, and one that i cherish most of the time. the lack of that feeling today is probably m,ore of a reflection on my current spiritual state than anything else.
so anyhow, it is time to move forward and show up a bit early.
yes i am grateful for my recovery and service to the fellowship is only one of the means by which i can show that gratitude, so this morning i am working on being grateful for a chance to serve.
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