Some memes

i learn what our limitations are, establish some healthy boundaries, and set out in new directions that develop my strengths. humility is not a concept i understood when i came to recovery, i associated being humble with being humiliated and subservient and i was not too off the mark when one looks at the dictionary. it took me more than a minute to “get” that when that term is used in a recovery setting, it means that i come to see what i can and cannot do, and how i fit into the world. it also mean that when i face something that is overwhelming, i can ask my peers for help in walking through whatever life is throwing my way.
this morning, as i watch football an write this, i am wondering what i am going to do to generate some more funds, come the new year. for right now, i am going to dip into my savings to tide me over. i did see an ad for a job that might fit my schedule and be something that i might enjoy doing. the next time i see the ad, i will make sure i get the number and make the call. it may be Thanksgiving day, but for me, it feels like another Thursday. living a life outside the forty hour work week is becoming so routine that when the rest of the world has a holiday, it does not feel like one to me.
moving into the here and now, i have to let this go and go do my research for the next commitment i have today. when i consider the topic: gratitude. i can see myself going at least a dozen different rabbit holes. what i need to do, is put this aside, shut down my AI cosplay and get focused on what i am going to use as my seed. i am grateful that i can speak to that subject and that i have a notion of how to get it started. whether or not my message will resonate with anyone, is not my stuff. i am grateful that i can be in a place that allows me to finally reduce my need to know what others may or may not be thinking of me, just for today.

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