โ some days just are not the way i wish they would be โ
Posted: Fri, Feb 16, 2007 11:28:52 AM
i often end up looking for a way to avoid my feelings instead of simply acknowledging that those feelings are painful.
and boy of boy, today is one of those days. the fallout from achieving one of my dreams yesterday is just stating to catch up with me. i have been running around doing stuff and clearing the decks so that i can move into my brand new home and as a result have let my responsibilities at work slide! so today my plate is full, and i am feeling quite stressed about all of this.
of course this is luxury problems, having a job with responsibilities and a new home are gifts that only life in recovery can bring to this addict. and with every gift comes responsibilities and feelings. so i am not going to deny that i feel overwhelmed nor am i going to swallow or alter that feeling with any behavior or using anything today. after all i can and will survive these feelings just for today!
and boy of boy, today is one of those days. the fallout from achieving one of my dreams yesterday is just stating to catch up with me. i have been running around doing stuff and clearing the decks so that i can move into my brand new home and as a result have let my responsibilities at work slide! so today my plate is full, and i am feeling quite stressed about all of this.
of course this is luxury problems, having a job with responsibilities and a new home are gifts that only life in recovery can bring to this addict. and with every gift comes responsibilities and feelings. so i am not going to deny that i feel overwhelmed nor am i going to swallow or alter that feeling with any behavior or using anything today. after all i can and will survive these feelings just for today!
∞ DT ∞