โ i have found tolerance to be a principle that not only strengthens my own recovery โ
Posted: Sun, Jun 24, 2007 08:18:31 AM
but also my relationships with individuals who are a source of irritation to me.
well i guess it is a just for tomorrow program for me this morning, i read the reading for tomorrow instead of this one when i got up this morning, and was quite surprised what i found when i started to write my blog. my character defects have become more and more painfully obvious to me over the past couple weeks, and unconsciously the last thing i wanted to deal with this morning is tolerance.
so now i have to turn over the start of my day, which has been quite productive so far, and get a grip on what this reading iss for today. i know being present is hard work, and i am more than willing to allow that to happen to toady, but jeeez is it so hard for me to ask that i actually read the real reading???
well enough of the baseball attack on my motives and actions, and thinking about tolerance as the key to self-acceptance is an interesting tack to be on for the rest of this day forward. although the reading did not explicitly talk about self-acceptance, that is the message i got this morning. the more things i find that i cannot tolerate in others, the more i find in myself. after all it has been my experience that those behaviors that i see in others that drive my up a wall, are the exact behaviors i find in myself, when i choose to strip away the veil of denial. so right now, it is a good thing that i am working through the sixth step process, and am actually planning on taking care of my assignment with a bit of dispatch. i am getting less and less comfortable with what i am finding out about myself, and i know of only a couple of ways to relieve that discomfort, and one of those means is not part of my plan today, so that leaves working the step i happen to be on, as if my life depended on it, because it really does. well into this new day to see what i can tolerate.
well i guess it is a just for tomorrow program for me this morning, i read the reading for tomorrow instead of this one when i got up this morning, and was quite surprised what i found when i started to write my blog. my character defects have become more and more painfully obvious to me over the past couple weeks, and unconsciously the last thing i wanted to deal with this morning is tolerance.
so now i have to turn over the start of my day, which has been quite productive so far, and get a grip on what this reading iss for today. i know being present is hard work, and i am more than willing to allow that to happen to toady, but jeeez is it so hard for me to ask that i actually read the real reading???
well enough of the baseball attack on my motives and actions, and thinking about tolerance as the key to self-acceptance is an interesting tack to be on for the rest of this day forward. although the reading did not explicitly talk about self-acceptance, that is the message i got this morning. the more things i find that i cannot tolerate in others, the more i find in myself. after all it has been my experience that those behaviors that i see in others that drive my up a wall, are the exact behaviors i find in myself, when i choose to strip away the veil of denial. so right now, it is a good thing that i am working through the sixth step process, and am actually planning on taking care of my assignment with a bit of dispatch. i am getting less and less comfortable with what i am finding out about myself, and i know of only a couple of ways to relieve that discomfort, and one of those means is not part of my plan today, so that leaves working the step i happen to be on, as if my life depended on it, because it really does. well into this new day to see what i can tolerate.
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