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judge others, looks great on paper and if i lived in a yippy-skippy. Kum-By-Yah world i would say that it may even be an achievable goal for me. i grew up in a time of history where one was taught to observe the world, gather facts and think for themselves after critically discerning what one had found. when i say i have researched an idea, i actually go out a critically view all the sources i can find. that is not to say that i seriously looked into the notion the world is flat, 5G causes COVID, or that Italian satellites flipped votes in the previous presidential election, but i have gone down many a rabbit hole to see if a theory has any merit. the very fact that many who walk the world today have lost the ability to discern truth form fiction, disturbs me and i believe it is a result of pumping up individual esteem at the cost of herd intelligence. that is my pet theory and one i have no evidence to support, so it is one that i choose to keep quiet, but i do see the results of a general “dumbing down” of society all around me, why on earth would one need to put a warning label on a curling iron stating that it is hot and will cause burns? i know the answer to that question and it really is not about how discerning a consumer may be, it is about some corporation protecting itself from the litigious world where every bump in the road is someone else's problem and they need to pay!
coming into recovery, with my critical thinking skills intact was not the best of all possible worlds. more than one idea, when presented to me., was rejected out of hand as not being plausible, possible or even making any sort of sense. one of the hardest notions for me to discard was that i was not responsible for what i had become and what i had to do to get there and the rooms gave me the perfect, or so i thought, out: I AM AN ADDICT AND NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR MY ADDICTION. that brush covered a whole host of sins and it took quite some time for me to realize that addiction and my behavior were actually separable, and i needed to take responsibility for my actions. talk about a rude fVcking awakening! 🤯 this also led me to uncover that each and every one of my judgements, whether they were valid or not, did not need to be shared with anyone who happened to be in earshot, when i was ready to make my pronouncements. it took me a very long time to learn that discretion is the better part of valor.
it is true that how i see others live their lives and work their program is subjective and run through the filters of a life time. i can learn to tolerate and accept what i may perceive as their failings and hope they do the same for me, or i can live in the sterile world of crackpot You-tube videos and conspiracies in my tin-foil hat. today i choose to watch, observe and accept what works for me into my daily life, letting the rest go. i can judge and be tolerant and accepting, if i allow the spiritual principles of this recovery program to guide my actions, just for today.

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