reaffirming my decision
Posted: Tue, Sep 28, 2004 04:38:53 AM
just for today i believe surrender my will and my life to the care of my Higher Power.
i have moments of self-will and belief that somehow i have power and can do life without the help of anyone especially a loving caring Higher Power. overe and over again in the past couple of weeks i have been shown the true state of things. i have no power over the disrease of addiction and how it affects the people i care about. no matter how spiritual i think i am, nothing has changed in that respect, i am still powereless over an addict who still chooses to use. i am still powerless over my disease, and i am still powerless over what happens when.
as painful as that seems to me the alternative, having that power and not getting the results i wish, is even worse.
so just for today i accept my powerlessness and turn my will and life over to the care of a loving Higher Power.
-- DT --
i have moments of self-will and belief that somehow i have power and can do life without the help of anyone especially a loving caring Higher Power. overe and over again in the past couple of weeks i have been shown the true state of things. i have no power over the disrease of addiction and how it affects the people i care about. no matter how spiritual i think i am, nothing has changed in that respect, i am still powereless over an addict who still chooses to use. i am still powerless over my disease, and i am still powerless over what happens when.
as painful as that seems to me the alternative, having that power and not getting the results i wish, is even worse.
so just for today i accept my powerlessness and turn my will and life over to the care of a loving Higher Power.
-- DT --