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i meet them in the rooms of recovery, sharing the bonds of past suffering and hope for the future.
this is one of those readings that i have not a clue what direction to write about this morning -- or perhaps it is not the reading but my state. i agree with every word of the reading and find the little example one of those only in ... kind of stories. perhaps i find it so touching because i found my significant other in the rooms of recovery. when she walked in there was no way in hell i was ever going to hook up with her,now we own a house together. ironic how things work out. i can tell more stories about the unlikely friendships and partnerships that i have formed as a result of hooking up with the fellowship that provide me a new manner of living. none of the men i sponsor would have been using buddies or even among the few people left in my social circle in active addiction. i certainly would have never hung out with my sponsor, and very few of the people i share my service commitments with would have been seen worth my time, way back when.
so what i am hearing from inside my head as i write this and ponder the deeper implications of my life in recovery is a sense of gratitude to the program. at the end of my active addiction i had very few people left in my life, partially by design, but mostly because they could not stand to see me doing what i needed to do. they never understood why i used the way i used, nor did they have a clue about what was really going on inside of my twisted head. yes i still have work to do about letting people in, and getting over being so concerned about how i look. yes i can always make more room in my life for new friends and partners in recovery. but i have finally come to accept that i am a work in progress, and that work will never be finished. i am grateful today that i have started to learn to look past the social and physical difference between myself and those who are in my life and started to learn how to be more than just another warm body in the rooms of recovery. my life is fuller today and the gift i am most grateful for right now, is the spiritual path that will allow it to become even fuller! so off to the races and into the fray, it after all just another day.

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