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the future. although it is pretty self-evident in what i write, i will say that i have a tendency to ignore any hope for the future. i know that some of my peers, seem to be stuck in the Susie Sunshine mode of sharing, and i often think to balance their message i need to be a Donnie Downer. in reality, i am more hopeful than i choose to share. i may not walk around all starry-eyed, spewing hope with every word, but i stay clean, day after day, no matter how hopeless i may feel at the moment. the fact that i have the FAITH to persevere, even when i wonder why, is an expression of HOPE and perhaps i need to go there more often.
the fact that i stick around, even when i can see a pile differences between myself and many of my peers, is another expression of my unspoken hope. i know without a doubt, that what i get from my peers, even those with whom i have extreme issues with, keeps me coming back. altogether on this cool and cloudy Sunday morning, i can see that like my peers, all i really want is a manner of living in which i am not enslaved by addiction, no matter what form it may take. just for today, i will stay clean, live an active program of recovery and work towards taking care of everything that needs to be done today.

∞ DT ∞