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nothing seems simple in my life these days. everything is out of my control and my life feels unmanageable. this is not too far from the truth, the only thing i can control in actuality is how i respond to the events around me. that response is a direct reflection of my current spiritual, physical, emotional and mental state. the nice part of recovery though is that it gives the choice whether to act out or seek a spiritual solution to what transpires. my behaviors have been less than stellar, but i am human and that is to be expected.
but coming back on topic, i have noticed my prayers taking on a greater relevancy to my life and less dealing with the abstract notions that i was a supposed intellectual like to look at. today i can be present with my feelings and evaluate where i am going and most important listen for and feel GOD's will and let my will take a back seat. today i can surrender my fears and expectations as part of my whole will and life to GOD. and today i can do my best to travel a path that minimizes the damage and chaos to those who happen upon me.
-- DT --