โ prayer is THE way for me to gain โ
Posted: Tue, Oct 16, 2012 08:44:19 AM
direction in my life and FIND the power to follow that direction. so i wnet home before half time last night disgusted with the football game i was watching and told everyone that if that was the spark the team needed to win, and they did win, that i had better buy a lottery ticket today and if that ticket wins, i will split it with all of them. well, the results of the game are in and yes, my team did win, so the second part f that tri-partite promise needs to be fulfilled. honestly, i know that had i stayed the results would have been the same, as i KNOW i have NO power to influence a sporting event that i am watching on TV, it is fun to thnk that i do, BUT reality is just that REAL. so what did i pray for today? the power to stay clean. yes, it is certainly a parrot-like response to the reading today and be that as it may, it is the truth in my life today.
you see, if i accept the FIRST STEP, totally and without reservations, than i am stuck with the other eleven, or as many as i have walked through since my life in active recovery began. that acceptance leads to a state of hopelessness, if i have no power, how the heck am i ever going to stay clean. BINGO, ask for that power from a POWER greater than myself. it is for me, the any way to restore hope in a hopeless situation.
i could go on and on, about how i got to this spot in my life, but i have done that in the past and perhaps i will do so in the future. i could go on about how much peace and comfort i find in that simple reuest from the POWER that fuels my recovery, but for me the results speak for themselves, i have been clean over 5500 days in a row. in fact, i could also wail about how unfair life is, as i sit here writing this, while putting out a fire for one of my clients, before driving an hour to work for eight or so hours. wialing and gnashing my teeth is fun and does provide some relief, i am not about doing that this morning. i feel okay with hwo this day started even though it was not how i had it planned. i can and will get to work, earn my daily bread and perhaps even get to the shop to hang with my bros this evening. the last part is not exactly part of my plan, but one never knows how i will feel in nine hours.
anyhow, time to sign-off and get on with the rest of this day, it is a good one, because i can be at peace knowing that the POWER that fuels my recovery has my back
you see, if i accept the FIRST STEP, totally and without reservations, than i am stuck with the other eleven, or as many as i have walked through since my life in active recovery began. that acceptance leads to a state of hopelessness, if i have no power, how the heck am i ever going to stay clean. BINGO, ask for that power from a POWER greater than myself. it is for me, the any way to restore hope in a hopeless situation.
i could go on and on, about how i got to this spot in my life, but i have done that in the past and perhaps i will do so in the future. i could go on about how much peace and comfort i find in that simple reuest from the POWER that fuels my recovery, but for me the results speak for themselves, i have been clean over 5500 days in a row. in fact, i could also wail about how unfair life is, as i sit here writing this, while putting out a fire for one of my clients, before driving an hour to work for eight or so hours. wialing and gnashing my teeth is fun and does provide some relief, i am not about doing that this morning. i feel okay with hwo this day started even though it was not how i had it planned. i can and will get to work, earn my daily bread and perhaps even get to the shop to hang with my bros this evening. the last part is not exactly part of my plan, but one never knows how i will feel in nine hours.
anyhow, time to sign-off and get on with the rest of this day, it is a good one, because i can be at peace knowing that the POWER that fuels my recovery has my back
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