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ah, once again it comes back to prayer. this reading as mundane and repetitive as it seems, at least to me, is one that strikes a harmonic chord within me today. what i **felt** as i sat down to listen this morning, was an ever deepening connection to the POWER that fuels my recovery. yesterday,well i was going to go down the road, of spending some time with a couple of my peers, who are followers of a very familiar spiritual tradition. i decided that, although it might be a great time to compare and contrast, too much of what i was going to say, would end up treading on parts and pieces of what they told me in confidence, so i hastily back-spaced and moved along. i bring that up because of how far i have come down my spiritual road.
my friend Jack says it best: “my GOD does not have ears.” i certainly feel that and do not feel any lack of connection, because of that feeling. in fact, that only enforces what has been growing inside of me, over the past few months, when my sponse gave me the heinous assignment to feel my way to a elevator pitch version of my spiritual worldview. once upon a time i derided those who followed a spiritual path based on Western religion, or any religion in fact. i thought they lacked creativity, intelligence and originality. superstitious, would be the exact term. then after some time, i envied them, as they seemed to have all the spiritual answers figured out and down pat. they did not struggle with the “GOD” steps way i did, and they seemed to move through that part of the world with more grace and ease. now i have come to regard them with the respect they deserve as my peers. their way is no less easier than mine, especially if the adhere to one of the more fundamental versions, that refuse to acknowledge much of the scientific and social progress the world has made over the course of the past two centuries.as i grow to respect them, i am starting to see that i can respect myself. i need not compare and contrast, nor divide myself and my peers into groups based on how they find that POWER that fuels their recovery. which brings me back to the topic at hand, simple prayer.
i do pray, at least twice a day, to bracket my day and to make sure i understand where the power to stay clean comes from. anything else, is more stop, look and listen sort of exercise. i stop what i am doing, quiet my mind and see if i can feel the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery, in this particular instance. for me, sometimes prayer means not asking at all.
anyhow, as this notion, that of my elevator pitch, grows, i am quite certain that the view from this particular spot on my journey, will be startlingly breath-taking, and surely inspire me top further my journey on to becoming the man i have always wanted to be.

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