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i may take some knocks in the process, but even these can be counted as successes if i learn from them. not a whole lot on my mind this morning as i ponder what to write about the reading. to me, it seems self-evident, that humility is taking pride in my accomplishments and gratefully acknowledging what i have accomplished. this is quite different than when i came to recovery, where every little thing i did was subject to being boasted about. then as i was exposed to a little bit of recovery i flipped the switch and believed that taking any pride in accomplishing something was an exercise in stroking my ego, and needed to be avoided at all costs. so the binary decision making tree was set, because i could not distinguish shades of grey. it is nice to know that these days i do not see the world quite so black and white and i understand that the source of my accomplishments is my recovery, and the source of my recovery is a POWER GREATER THAN MYSELF. in that paradigm, i start to see, where i fit in. i was born with certain innate talents, and i have been educated to hone those, and many that i did not even know i had, over the course of my life. human existence is like that, i am better at some things than others and not as good at other tasks as others members of the human race. that is what it is. taking a bit of pride in what i have accomplished and sharing about it in the rooms, does provide HOPE to all present, because it shows that one , any addict can move beyond the life of active addiction and two, actually thrive in recovery. sharing about risks that did not quite work out for the better, is also a fountain of HOPE. it shows that i can take a risk, make a plan, and accept the outcome, and i did not have to use. so anyhow, time to hit the showers so i can accomplish a few things before i have to slide down to Castle Rock.

∞ DT ∞