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but my Higher Power wants me to succeed, and wants me to share with my loved ones the pride i take in my accomplishments.
this is really something i need to remember -- i am arrogant and boastful, it is part of my nature, so my reaction is to downplay my successes, so i can appear humble. for me, this reading goes back to the topic of balance, namely balancing how i speak about what i have accomplished. in recovery i have achieved many dreams, and i know that those achievements are the result of more than my own efforts. ahhhhhh, i here you saying, did those successes just drop into your life by some sort of divine intervention?? did you just pray for a miracle like getting a college degree and it just happened?
well the is really no simple answer for why i have succeeded in fulfilling my dreams. the first part of that answer has to do with the gift of recovery. truthfully recovery was not my choice, it was forced upon me, at a time in my life when i least desired it. but that is an old story and one that does not bear repeating today. the gift of recovery, allowed me to discover a new manner of living and uncover dreams and aspirations that were buried beneath the haze of my chemical romance. once that haze was blown out of my mind by the gale force winds of recovery, i saw that there was a whole lot of things wrong in my life, and perhaps the time to change them was upon me. the changes wrought by my commitment to recovery allowed me the energy and desire to do what it takes to succeed at attaining my dreams, ones like owning a home, finishing my education, developing committed relationships and improving my financial situation. so the divine intervention of dropping my ass into these rooms was the impetus for the changes that allow me to strive for even more today. i am willing to take a risk or two to live my dreams, i am willing to accept that perhaps the dream i uncover today, may not be in the cards today. that does not deter my desire, it just makes me accept that i need to listen and see what is really going on in my life in this moment. you know being punctual for what is going in and around me.
so how do i succeed today? well i look for the ways and means to further my dreams and my goals. check to see if those ways and means match my values, and then act on them. yes i fail, sometimes miserably, but i also can succeed. and if an addict like me, can live to see his dreams coming true, so can anyone else. life is a gift that i choose not to squander today, so off to the races and see what goals i can achieve today!

∞ DT ∞