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when i dilute the fullness of my message by neglecting to share about the tough times i may walk through on my journey, i fail the newcomers on many levels, the most important one being that no matter what happens, i can recover, i can stay clean. i am one of those who has gone through phases in my recovery where i thought that i needed to share only the sunlight of my spirit at meetings to p[protect the newcomer. and i did. i am now of the opinion that the best way i can protect a newcomer is to share what is on my heart right at that moment. after all, my sponsor reminded me last night that i know what i know, i know what i feel and i know what i believe. as a result to be true to myself, i need to remember that whenever i am sharing anywhere.
so anyhow, i am much better today, i understand what the legacy i will leave in my wake as i end my current service position and perhaps i need to stay a part of that service body to repay the investment of the fellowship who entrusted me and invested their resources in me. that answer has yet to be put on my heart, but many others have, like accepting my current assignment in its original form and not the altered, "lite" version that i got after whining about how inconvenient it would be. and to owning up to what i said i would do, and doing it. and to allow myself the freedom to begin to trust that i do have an intuitive feeling about what is right and wrong for me.
but enough of these semi-random musings, i feel re-energized this morning and the time has come to move forward and meet a few responsibilities. TTFN!

∞ DT ∞