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carrying the message to the addict who still suffers, i find contentment, happiness, and a deeply meaningful life. and service is part of that.
to my anonymous responder yesterday, i have had that discussion with my sponsor, and his opinion is slightly different than yours. thank you for the feedback and as always i will take what i am told and integrate it into my program in all of its phases.
so on to what this day brings. i have a few projects to finish up, and am quite content and satisfied with what is happening in my life. i went to a meeting last night and got a fresh look at my current step work, and this morning i have a clearer understanding as to what is going on. the truth? well the truth is i do not have to know what is going on inside of me, i just have to be in touch with how i am reacting to that process, and let the process happen of its own accord. i thought i was reacting well, however what i have discovered is that i have been resisting the change because i had it up in my little head, that somehow i have control over the process that doing this step work is creating. in actuality i just need to deepen my surrender and allow what will happen to happen. can i see the future? not today, perhaps tomorrow that ability will be given to me. so for now, yes i am happy toady. i am content about who i am and comfortable with the knowledge that i have people who love and care for me and will provide me those things that i need. it is still my belief that all of that flows from some HIGHER POWER and all i need to do is be grateful that i ahve such people in my life. does gratitude equal happiness? not that i know of, but toady it is a component of happiness and that is enough of deepo thoughts for today.

∞ DT ∞