Some memes

the fellowship that gave me this new life. an interesting concept and one i find a bit more solace in today than i have when i tripped across this particular entry in my previous cycles through the morning meditation book. i have been working for a variety of different people over the past month and have been wildly successful at this new direction in my career. in fact more successful than ever before in my life. this success has come with a bit of a cost, namely to my involvement with the fellowship. no i have not stopped attending meetings, but i have not sat down with or even called my sponsor in six weeks. i have kept every service commitment that i have made, but i am not progressing forward on the projects i have agreed to do. when i attend meetings, i find that i quickly leave as soon as they are over and rush back to my computer to do the tasks i am being paid for.
so why you may ask, do i find solace in a reading about seeking happiness when i find myself having less and less involvement with the fellowship? well for one, it reminds of one of the sources of happiness in my life and one that i need to once again find the time to nourish. it also provides a bit of direction for my activities over the next couple of weeks. instead of dreading a week of service meetings far from my home, i will look forward to them with joyous anticipation. after all it is not a burden to serve my fellowship it is an honor and a privilege. the time has come for me to once again do my best to balance work, personal responsibilities, recovery and service to the fellowship because all are necessary for my happiness and continued recovery. so i will happily serve my fellowship at our assembly today and be present for what ever i need to be present for.

∞ DT ∞