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not so long ago, i was incapable of having any **luxury problems** in my life. i devoted all of our energy to maintaining my active addiction; today i have a full life. being too busy, having too much to do in a day, not being able to find time, blah, blah, blah, i can go on and on, and that could be just the tip of the iceberg, i have yet to even start with the rest of the so-called problems that my life in recovery has given me, like having to sleep in a strange bed so my girlfriend could go see our new grandson. so for me, i can stay here, looking at the whole ball of wax as something that needs to be tolerated and endured. i could, but i think that i did not get clean, i do not maintain my recovery to be miserable at my own hand today, instead i can look at all of this, problems, trials, tribulations, celebrations, relationships and so on, as a wonderful gift and cherish what i have been so freely given. given the choice, it appears to me the easier softer way is to accept that living in the post-modern world requires qa certain skill-set, that i came to recovery without any knowledge of how to use, much less what was really needed to survive beyond the getting and using and finding the ways and means…
so anyhow, yes we have a new grandson, yes i have a tone of work to get done over the course of the next few days, and yes, i even need a bit of time to kick back and relax. all of that is possible on top of meeting with sponsees, calling my sponsor, working steps, going to meetings and being available for whatever comes down the pike. how you may ask? well that is yet to be seen! balance is quite another topic, and i am not even going to start on that today, i am going with the thought that i am grateful for all the gifts that i have gotten from recovery, including a **full life**, speaking of which i need to go and do my workout so i can face that full life today.

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